Happy New Year!

So I totally keep forgetting about this thing. During the BL program at my gym and the 21 day challenge? I lost about 22 lbs putting me at 261. I think I’m up about 5 or 6 lbs right now (I’ll have to weight myself later).

I really enjoyed the paleo. So much that I signed up for the challenge again. It’s starting today actually. Anyone doing it? I think it’s great. I’m not looking forward to the detox though. I know last time I was tired and cranky for a few days. I’m tired already.

Maybe it’s time for a nap.

Early morning workouts

So I woke up super early this morning and did a spin class at 5:45. This was my first class with this teacher and he was tough. He did a lot of standing. Now, I LOVE standing in spin because well, otherwise your ass hurts like no other pain I’ve ever felt… but that doesn’t mean I want to run for 4 minutes. It actually really hurt my feet. I had to sit down a couple of times. 

Afterwards because I completely hate myself I went to the park and did a walk/jog/run of 1.5 miles. Week 1 Day 1 of C25K. (Couch to 5K) and god DAYUM did my shins hurt like a motherfucker. I found a couple of exercises online to help with that. 

I’m gonna get the boyfriend to give me a footrub/ calfrub tonight. It’ll be amazing!

I’m signed up for a 5K on Nov 16. Its the same one I signed up for last year and chickened out of. :\ So this year I really have something to prove. I’m gonna rock it! I hope. I won’t be able to run it, but I will still have a great time! I’ve got a couple of friends in it from the wedding I’m in. 

I fear that this will be my last wedding for a while - not that it’s a bad thing… just means after that my name won’t mean as much. lol

Also, I’m doing the 21 Day Superhero Challenge. Are you? 
I’m nervous. No grains or sugar? We shall see how it goes! If you sign up, let me know! Semi-paleo diet, here I come! Starts Wednesday!

Anyone in?

Day 1 Biggest Loser (take 2)

So today I started a Biggest Loser program at my gym. It was HARD. Then I went swimming afterwards with a friend of mine which also sucked. 

Jogging, squats, ropes, TRX, push ups and plank. Oh my! 


I’m exhausted. 

I hope to finally get an awesome night of sleep!  Stress is a killer. 

Using a new food tracking app called “MyNetDiary” I really like it! On the front page it has water so you can remember to track your glasses - along with the fact that it’s a great reminder to drink a glass of water. It also analyzes the food that you’ve eaten which is kinda interesting. It also seems to have a lot of food that’s been input from all over the globe which is super helpful if you eat any sort of ethnic foods. 

Tomorrow will suck, but I’m gonna go to the gym again… yAy… Beast mode!

Another wedding?!

So I’m in another wedding in April 2014. -.-

She’s a good friend so I don’t regret it but god damn. I was in one in October 2012, May 2013 and now April 2014! 

I recently (like last week) finally got the all clear for working out again after breaking my foot. I’ve been going swimming at the gym and did a spin class (god DAYUM my ass hurt like NOTHING) and I’m gonna keep picking it up. Also I signed up for the Biggest Loser Program at my gym again. I really enjoyed it last time even though I didn’t lose as much weight as I would have liked. (hindered of course by the car accident)

This time around I really want to focus more on my eating. I think I want to lean towards a cleaner eating regimen. I recently bought a tofuxpress and it’s in my fridge as I type squeezing the water (life) out of my tofu!

Does anyone have any clean eating tips or blogs or anything else that would help? Thanks!

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holy shit.


holy shit.

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I need you now more than ever.

Hey tumblr, 

I know I’ve been gone for a while. I got into a car accident at the end of March. Had to drop out of my Biggest Loser program at the gym. I didn’t lose weight and didn’t gain before the weigh in. My team won! The trainer told me that before my accident? He would have bet everything on me to win the whole sha-bang! It was great and heart wrenching to hear. I know there was nothing I could do about it… but I still feel so angry about the accident. First I was having an issue with my knees and got that sorted and then this? I was sitting at a stop light and someone lost control and luckily for him? My car was there to stop him from spinning. His car hit mine 3 times. My left side was in a world of pain. I’m lucky I didn’t see it coming or I would have tensed up and been even more damaged. I just wasn’t paying attention, I was at a stop light and the other side just went green so I was just looking down then barely looked up to see this car coming straight at me and bam. It’s been a whole debacle. He totaled my vehicle. I have been going to the chiropractor twice a week up until the last month - now it’s dropped down to once a week. I was going to an acupuncturist and just stopped that about a month ago as well. I had MRI’s performed on my knee and my shoulder. I’ve been taking an anti inflammatory twice a day and STILL have swelling in my shoulder. I feel it popping all the time. My knee has gotten better with some exercises I was shown. I still have tiny tears in my meniscus and a cyst in the back of my knee (water in my knee) but I rarely get pain now. 

Actually I stopped taking the naproxen about 2 weeks ago. Because I had finally been able to work out, so I started working out slowly… going to the gym to go swimming. Then? I fell and broke a bone in my foot. My RIGHT foot. In other words, the foot that wasn’t messed up from the accident. Some doctors believe that an anti inflammatory can hinder bone repair so I stopped taking it. Now my shoulder hurts almost daily. Why did I stop? Because I’m going on a vacation in July and would like to be able to walk around!

I broke the fifth metatarsal - not a complete break, just a split that curves around and another slight break directly underneath that one. I also sprained my ankle and found out I have arthritis in my ankle. I have a walking boot for when I walk. 

So what have I been doing? A whole lot of nothing. I’ve been laid up catching up on my television shows and just relaxing. I’m trying not to eat like crap, although I’m human so I sometimes falter. 

My weight? As of this morning I was 275. At the end of the biggest loser program I think I was around 263. I have finally stopped being angry at myself for something that wasn’t my fault. But now I just need to work out. Today I did some exercises. I did some free weights and some crunches and push ups on my knees. I won’t be able to do anything on my foot for a while so I’m just gonna keep at it. Slowly but surely. 

My relationship with food

I always tell myself that my eating is not bad. And I don’t know if I get worse when I’m on a diet as I’m craving bad things but.. Maybe my diet is not as good as I thought. I love cheese and the week before my period I can’t live without chocolate. This week is my chocolate week and I am having such a hard time with it. Yet after I eat some chocolate or something bad? I feel awful. Guilt. Shame. Disgust. Nausea. Yes, nausea! I actually feel physically sick from eating things that I thought were perfectly ok a few months ago.

So what is it about food? I guess I just have some sort of deep rooted attachment. Food was always there for me; always made me feel good, never judged me… It was and still IS my friend. I remember sneaking into the kitchen when my father and brother would be in the backyard just to make a quick grilled cheese in the microwave. It was delicious - it not only fulfilled my want for food, but also for affection.

What am I trying to do to change this? I’m just trying to eat mostly clean and yes I sneak a piece of cheese in every now and then… But I refuse to feel guilty about it. Maybe if I did then I would lose more weight. Haha.

This is such a long hard journey. I’ve only lost about 9 lbs in almost 2 months. There are days when I want to give up, but then I look at how my clothes fit and how I feel. And you know what? I feel fan-fucking-tastic.

I went to the specialist at the gym for a body fat test and they couldn’t do it because apparently their equipment is only meant to measure little people and their body fat. Absolute poppycock!!! But I’m sure I’ve built up plenty of muscle. I’ve noticed myself move from 20 to 30 to 40 lbs on certain machines. I can jog 3 full laps at the gym (we have a little track - 11 is a mile). I still feel as though my lungs are about to explode - I smoked for 10 years, but I am getting better.

I see my friends struggling with their weight and I try to help them and talk to them and motivate them… But they just blow me off. “I know I’m doing a half assed job” or “I know! I will eat better later” I’m tired of it. They will come to me for help when they are serious. You can’t force someone to be like you, you can just offer your help when they realise it for themselves.

So, friends? When you are ready? I’m here for you.

I think this is my problem. I don’t eat terrible food, but I guess I’m not eating the best. Get on it!

I think this is my problem. I don’t eat terrible food, but I guess I’m not eating the best. Get on it!

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Spin class!

Spin class!

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